it’s not looking at what you don’t got but start to be thankful for what you do got

so this Christmas thing always makes me wonder at what the true meaning of it is and where it somehow got lost along the way.... this year is a very different holiday season for me and i've come to realize what it is really important to me in my life. i've really been trying to turn all my negative thoughts around and be more grateful and mindful of what i do have.
my lil bro would be super proud for my next thought.... i was listening to the T.I. song "live your life" and really liked what he says at the beginning of the video. the gist of it was that along this journey of life you might get tripped up and break down but you have to look at the things that get you to where you are... like all the trips and things make you stronger and got you to where you are today. and at the end he says "it’s not looking at what you don’t got but start to be thankful for what you do got" and that really just brings it back around to my reminding myself to be more grateful.
this holidays season the things that have stuck out in my mind so far are:
-my mom making i knew how important it was for her to make me a stocking before she went away and that i was the ONLY person she shopped for, she decided a few years ago to let go of the consumer side of Christmas so i felt important that i as the only one she caved for lol
-my sister saying it wouldn't be the same without me this year
-my stepdad and stepmom including me in their family Christmas and having me over with the kids for our breakfast celebration and also for my fab step mom making sure i had pressies to open and stocking the fridge and freezer for while i house sit
-being invited to various people's family celebrations, being included
-not having to buy anything cause everyone went away, it was WAY less stressful and was kinda nice
-realizing that no matter where i go i'm always able to have a roof over my head, even if none of them are my own. just how many people open their doors to me... i appreciate it more than you know and i don't think i express that enough
-my aunt adopting me into her house for Christmas and having a sleep over there tomorrow!

-life in general, even in the low times it's still a journey


yea.... so just wanted to share that with you all, don't even know if anyone's reading this anymore cause i hardly ever blog lol. oh well!
Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and for those who don't celebrate Happy December!!!

big love
J