I'm terrified but I'm not leaving

i believe we all have times in our lives that we know have helped define us. they can leave us raw, open, vulnerable and even scared. they can motivate us, they can terrify us and they can even change us. sometimes it's a moment and you miss it when it goes by but reflecting back on it you realize that ever since then, you haven't been the same. without commenting on the personal life of Rihanna i keep hearing this song on the radio and it totally sends chills down my spine. to me it speaks of these moments and says "bring it on" - just try me. you know this could be a test that you must pass, so let's go! the line i like the most is "you can see my heart, beating through my chest - and i'm terrified but i'm not leaving......."


Russian Roulette lyrics sung by Rihanna

Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

Chorus:
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
That I’m terrified but I’m not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he’s here means he’s never lost

{Chorus}

As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too pick up the value of my life

{Chorus}



so what defines you? what moments have you had that help make up who you are? what terrifies you but keeps you standing? what makes your heart show through when it feels like it's pumping a million miles a minute? what prayer do you say to yourself as these moments pass?

Love, J